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I Forgot
There are various reasons I have named this blog 'I forgot', one of which is I forgot that if you modify something in Internet Explorer it tends to reload, deleting a large blog that you were in the middle of writing!!

Well anyways I forgot all the things I held so dear before... so I decided to change a few things in my life, waking up at 8am instead of 11.30. And trying to mend broken bridges with those I've argued with. And of course BluePoison! How many people remember that? It either went down in 2005 or 2006, can't really remember which it was, but I do know it was March of that year. Was a fun little thing to be doing, and that's something that I've decided I will blog about!!

Looking back over my previous blogs I notice that I would rant on about my new website and how wonderful it was, it was the place to be as far as I was concerned. I spent every waking second thinking of what I could put on there, how I could change it and make it better in the hope that if I got a visitor that day it would make a good impression. As it was a personal website it obviously didn't recieve all of the hits on the web but it still recieved a bit of traffic even if it was low comparing to standards of other sites, still a couple of hits a day averaging about 50.
It's interesting to think back now that I segregated myself away from so many people to try and make something I thought would complete my life and get me some respect in an online community of web developers and one day lead to a well paid enjoyable career. It didn't.
When the domain expired I forgot it, until this week. I've had the week off of work and now that I'm 18, I have my own money, my own plastic and a bigger, more accurate outlook on life.
I miss having a project that I enjoyed that I didn't have to hide away from everyone, this was just such a project. I could upload whatever I wanted and wouldn't have to worry. The only downside is when I had a forum that was slowly gathering dust after such a fruitful start.
I must admit that BluePoison had it's moments at the start with many events such as;

• The time I almost had a co-admin in the site and on the forums who proved to be a great help to myself and to the site. We thought on the same wavelengh and I didn't realise how knowledgeable he was with the internet. At one point he helped gather a lot of traffic to the sight through a slightly devious/nethertheless inspired technique of domain jacking someone that slandered our forum.

• The mini war against a personal site by someone in Manchester.

• And the naked pictures scandal.

Either way there are a lot of memories assosciated with the old site. Unfortunately there aren't any traces of it online anymore... so after much trawling through one of my oldest hard drives I eventually managed to come across the design for the site around the time of the forum launch.


The new website will obviously start off with a similar design but will be different in its own ways. Unfortunately I'm still searching for the styles I used towards the end, but they were all saved on this hard drive which was accidently wiped last year during an upgrade to vista HURRAH!
Anyways more news on that soon...

The message is simple, you can look back on your life and think to yourself "I wish I'd changed that" or "I wish I'd done that differently"... but it's better to be able to think "I'm glad I changed that", "I'm glad I did that differently" and "I'm so happy I carried on with that passion".

RyRy